It's almost over. For some reason, that is supposed to give some sort of lift in spirits, but I feel so numb, I honestly can't feel anything other than complete exhaustion.
It seems easier to give up on life than to keep fighting it, but thank God for my strength and determination to rise and conquer. I question so much about so many things, but the answers never come, nor will they ever.
Time has stolen so much from me; so much that I can never get back. I am bitter, and angry, and feel robbed. I feel like my happiness has been ripped away from me. The only comfort I have is knowing that it is temporary. However, there is always darkness looming over me knowing that he will leave again ... and again ... and again.
True love is powerful. If he gave me the choice, a choice to stay in this life or get out of it, I would say get out. I hate it. Who could possibly LOVE this?? However, if he gave me the choice to get out or stay and love him, I would stay and love him.
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