I Don't Want To Feel

I wanted to go to bed early, tonight, just so I wouldn't have to feel anything more, today.  It's definitely a bad day.

During my routine 6 mile walk, today, I made the usual pit-stop at the exact place on the beach where Chris and I were married. Usually, it makes me feel pretty good to be there. Today, however, I completely lost it. I had a pretty good melt down, and pretty hard cry, and left the spot wishing I had passed it by just this once.